Really nervous

So it finally happened... I got a call from UC Riverside about the job I interviewed for. I haven't talked to the person yet (it was a message on my work phone). But she said it was good news, so I think they are going to offer me the job. But all of a sudden, I'm really nervous about it. Its a big move. Except for when I was born in Arkansas, I have not lived outside of Texas. And I like Texas, mostly. Its also a long way from the folks. I know I have lived away from them for 7 years now, but here I was able to see them every few months or so. From California it will be every 6 months or so. I haven't processed this yet. I just needed to get it out there.

Sunday Morning

I think there is a poem that I really like called Sunday Morning......There is.....its by Wallace Stevens. I know there is Velvet Underground song called Sunday Morning and I like it a lot too. I also watched CBS Sunday Morning today. I dreamed about my dead dogs last night. I know it sounds morbid or that I'm making light, but I'm not. I miss their presence in my life in a very deep and profound way. And their loss is something I mourn on a daily basis. I can say the same for the people who've gone from me, taken either by death or by life. I think of them in one way or another everyday and the sadness I feel for their absence never goes away, ever, ever. I'm glad to have known and loved them.